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01/12/2017
The former Apprentice star confirmed the news in a blog post called 'And Then There Was Nothing'.
The 30-year-old also said that her miscarriage came just two weeks after she discovered she was pregnant with her fourth child.
She wrote: "A couple of weeks after finding out we were having a baby, I started with brown spotting. I instantly started to panic, then instantly started to GOOGLE THE S**T OUT OF THE INTERNET.
"I found out that this could be 'Implantation or Breakthrough bleeding', 'perfectly normal' or 'the start of a miscarriage'.
"In the middle of all the sadness, we had been feeling as a family for the past couple of months, the universe (so I believed) had sent us the most precious gift. A baby.
"We started to get excited, choosing names, guessing what we would be having, downloading the 'baby centre' app to see what food the baby is the size of and starting to see some form of light at the end of the tunnel."
However, she went on to say that she was left "scared to go to the toilet" because she "knew deep down it was a miscarriage."
"The miscarriage lasted three days," she said. "We did another test which came up 'not-pregnant'. Just like that, it was gone. That was the most painful part of it, only three days earlier it read pregnant and now it was gone.
"I felt like my body was broken as well as my mind. I questioned why, why did this have to happen, what is the Universe trying to tell me. What lesson does the universe want me to take from this?
"What was the purpose of this pregnancy, surely there had to be one? I felt humiliated telling my friends that I had miscarried as only a few days before I had told them I was pregnant. I wondered if it was something that I did, or if I could have prevented it.
"I then started to realise sometimes there are no answers. Sometimes things just happen that are beyond our control and things that we can not change. The only control we have is how we choose to act and react to whatever life throws at us. When I realised this, all of a sudden I felt different. I felt for the first time in months that I had a clear mind.
"I let myself feel sad, but not for long, because there were so many more reasons to smile. I smiled for my children, my relationship, our health, the roof over our heads, my family, friends and just being here.
"S**t things happen in life, tragedy, death and things we will never know the answers too. But time is a healer and time needs its time."
Earlier this year, Jessica's ex-boyfriend – and father of her three children – Alistair Eccles, committed suicide.
(JP/LM)
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Jessica Cunningham Suffered Miscarriage
Jessica Cunningham has revealed that she suffered a miscarriage last month.The former Apprentice star confirmed the news in a blog post called 'And Then There Was Nothing'.
The 30-year-old also said that her miscarriage came just two weeks after she discovered she was pregnant with her fourth child.
She wrote: "A couple of weeks after finding out we were having a baby, I started with brown spotting. I instantly started to panic, then instantly started to GOOGLE THE S**T OUT OF THE INTERNET.
"I found out that this could be 'Implantation or Breakthrough bleeding', 'perfectly normal' or 'the start of a miscarriage'.
"In the middle of all the sadness, we had been feeling as a family for the past couple of months, the universe (so I believed) had sent us the most precious gift. A baby.
"We started to get excited, choosing names, guessing what we would be having, downloading the 'baby centre' app to see what food the baby is the size of and starting to see some form of light at the end of the tunnel."
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However, she went on to say that she was left "scared to go to the toilet" because she "knew deep down it was a miscarriage."
"The miscarriage lasted three days," she said. "We did another test which came up 'not-pregnant'. Just like that, it was gone. That was the most painful part of it, only three days earlier it read pregnant and now it was gone.
"I felt like my body was broken as well as my mind. I questioned why, why did this have to happen, what is the Universe trying to tell me. What lesson does the universe want me to take from this?
"What was the purpose of this pregnancy, surely there had to be one? I felt humiliated telling my friends that I had miscarried as only a few days before I had told them I was pregnant. I wondered if it was something that I did, or if I could have prevented it.
"I then started to realise sometimes there are no answers. Sometimes things just happen that are beyond our control and things that we can not change. The only control we have is how we choose to act and react to whatever life throws at us. When I realised this, all of a sudden I felt different. I felt for the first time in months that I had a clear mind.
"I let myself feel sad, but not for long, because there were so many more reasons to smile. I smiled for my children, my relationship, our health, the roof over our heads, my family, friends and just being here.
"S**t things happen in life, tragedy, death and things we will never know the answers too. But time is a healer and time needs its time."
Earlier this year, Jessica's ex-boyfriend – and father of her three children – Alistair Eccles, committed suicide.
(JP/LM)
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